[It's just surreal. That's what this is. This isn't even Luceti, this is just a dream. There's no other way this could make sense, it's just... Vegeta... Marrying her? Marrying her? Staying home... Accepting Capsule Corp as his home. Taking his daughter -their daughter- shopping like normal fathers do. Shopping, not training. It's just...
Bulma shakes her head again, her mouth opening and closing. It's too much. It's just too much.]
Really?
[Later she'll berate herself for that question, for her reactions as a whole. What kind of mother does that. Even if Bulla is from the future she should have known beyond doubt that it's her daughter. And she knows but... It's Vegeta whom she doubts. Because she knows how he is. She has seen him even after Trunks was born and things weren't that better, if anything they were worse because sometimes, some rare times he would actually seem open, willing to accept her. And then the next second he would just brush her aside as if she was nothing. And that happened in Luceti, in a place where fighting isn't an issue, it made her think that it was impossible for Vegeta to live in a world in peace. That once there was no more fighting to do on Earth he would take a spaceship and leave to never return.
And yet... He stays. He stays and marries her, has another daughter with her and just... He stays. It's such an incredible idea that she has to repeat it to herself in her mind to try to convince herself that it's real. No more solitude. No more worrying about not being good enough, pretty enough, clever enough. About being nothing but a tool, the source of training machines or the dragon radar. No more going out with her boyfriend only to see him hit on every girl around. No more uncertainty of ending with a future in which she has everything except a man that loves her. A family just as she has wished since she was just sixteen.
A broken sobbing sound comes out from her mouth, she raises her hand to her mouth as if attempting to stop the sound from escaping. It's really all she can do before she crumbles and the tears start to flow. It's so confusing. So shocking and scary. And at the same time so perfect that she can't help it. She's not sure if the tears are from the shock or due happiness, but for a few moments she just can't stop them. More than sixteen years, far more than that but still she will have what she wanted, what she dreamed with, won't she? She will have her prince and a family. And she knows it won't be easy, of course she knows, and that it's still far in the future for her but... One day it will be true. Even with their fights and all, Vegeta will return to her and eventually he will stop returning because he just stays there.
She will berate herself later for this, because a mother shouldn't cry in front of her daughter. Shouldn't need reassurance from her daughter. But right now she can't still think as a mother.]
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Date: 2013-03-16 11:47 pm (UTC)Bulma shakes her head again, her mouth opening and closing. It's too much. It's just too much.]
Really?
[Later she'll berate herself for that question, for her reactions as a whole. What kind of mother does that. Even if Bulla is from the future she should have known beyond doubt that it's her daughter. And she knows but... It's Vegeta whom she doubts. Because she knows how he is. She has seen him even after Trunks was born and things weren't that better, if anything they were worse because sometimes, some rare times he would actually seem open, willing to accept her. And then the next second he would just brush her aside as if she was nothing. And that happened in Luceti, in a place where fighting isn't an issue, it made her think that it was impossible for Vegeta to live in a world in peace. That once there was no more fighting to do on Earth he would take a spaceship and leave to never return.
And yet... He stays. He stays and marries her, has another daughter with her and just... He stays. It's such an incredible idea that she has to repeat it to herself in her mind to try to convince herself that it's real. No more solitude. No more worrying about not being good enough, pretty enough, clever enough. About being nothing but a tool, the source of training machines or the dragon radar. No more going out with her boyfriend only to see him hit on every girl around. No more uncertainty of ending with a future in which she has everything except a man that loves her. A family just as she has wished since she was just sixteen.
A broken sobbing sound comes out from her mouth, she raises her hand to her mouth as if attempting to stop the sound from escaping. It's really all she can do before she crumbles and the tears start to flow. It's so confusing. So shocking and scary. And at the same time so perfect that she can't help it. She's not sure if the tears are from the shock or due happiness, but for a few moments she just can't stop them. More than sixteen years, far more than that but still she will have what she wanted, what she dreamed with, won't she? She will have her prince and a family. And she knows it won't be easy, of course she knows, and that it's still far in the future for her but... One day it will be true. Even with their fights and all, Vegeta will return to her and eventually he will stop returning because he just stays there.
She will berate herself later for this, because a mother shouldn't cry in front of her daughter. Shouldn't need reassurance from her daughter. But right now she can't still think as a mother.]